beginning...

hey ppl....
so dis z my 1st xprnce of blogging....
newz to start with i wud lyk to share 1 of my poems with u ppl...as its for a social cause.
few days back i was so much depressed....reading the newspprs cos all had there pages filled with news of rape n rapidsts daily!!!!!....its really disappointing tht in a developing nation lyk ours there r jst laws on paper and nobody takes stringent actions...!!!n media z just 2 publicise the pain of the victims....everybody reads the news evryday,see the same thng on television sets but nobody really feels the pain and the draSTIC feeling the victim is going through.......
this is my creation dedicated to those gals and women who lost everything and are still struggling to get back to normal....i hope u ppl will exprnce bit of their agony!!here it starts....


AGONY...


shattered n smashed is the self now....
hopeless n fatal r the feelings now...
i sense nothing but pain all the tym...
cant hear cant c n cant feel wat goes around
as if not the body but soul has been tormented
m dying to die, m dying to die....

everybody asking the reason..
i have got no verve to speak up
of wat i went through n coerced to suffer..
i look at the faces sum concerned sum not
sum r just cladded with the the fake warmth...
n besides all sum r here to bear scathing nuance!!!
i lie unvarying with the picture of the appalling past...
no ideas no other thoughts but just the convict and i..
i took a sigh n closed my eyes
but widout my knowledge i got trapped
nowhere but the time when it started...

full of zest n zeal i used to be
eyes looked so sparkling n bright..
my dreams were not restricted
felt no worries no strain n no fright
all the day i used to shout
with voice so crisp n no reason 2 b loud...
until the nightmare came alive
how could i forget the day
i was caught in the trap so strong...
i just had no clue..
where it goes n where will it stop!!!
the day was unusual
the air so restless.......
as if i was constantly warned
but i felt nothing and tried to be calm
until i was asked by the jinx to cum along and
experience the traumatic episode...

i shouted i screamed but
was intoxicated so strong
noone came noone helped
i had no memory of wat happened after that...
i woke up in the dark and tuk time to recall..
but as soon as i came bk 2 my senses
it was more than late....
i was shivering,i was blank
and body as hard as stone
and heart just stopped working....
i burst into tears
and screamed and yelled..
i had nothing now
just nothing in this ominous world
no hopes and no spark..
i lost wat i treasured till date...
torn to pieces z my esteem
but i had to walk miles...
it seem to take great efforts to stand on feet
i dragged myself and wid eyes opened wide...
i reached my castle

but no sign of relief i got..
questions n questions were al around
but few to be answered....
i craved for the solace which was supposed to be mine
every second appears to be an era now...
and every breath seems so unwanted
heartbeats are now not momentous
this whole feeling of being alive seems terrible
m dying to die...
m dying to die....
m dying to die..........!!!!